When I was 21, I experienced a horrifying encounter with an incubus — though “incubus” wasn’t yet a word that had been added to my personal dictionary. All I knew was that an evil-feeling male spirit-thing came to me in the night, pinned me down, nearly suffocated me, and tried to rape me. It literally took my voice from me. I could not call out. So I fought. I fought like my life depended on it, because I believed that it did. And in that fight, I thrashed and trashed the room where I had been sleeping. The whole night long I fought. I remember being pinned to the ceiling, kicking over bookcases from above, overturning chairs, grasping desperately at curtains. Finally, at the break of dawn, when the first light seeped into the darkness and through the room’s one window, the spirit threw me down, the eight feet or so from up near the light on the ceiling, onto the floor where, when I hit, my voice suddenly returned and I screamed. The spirit was gone. The family with whom I was staying came rushing in and found me, crumpled, battered, and bruised, but fine.
The man I was visiting was a healer. After his wife lovingly mended and bandaged me, he hypnotized me for past-life regression. I remember his telling me that I’d been raped in several past lives. I was told that this spirit came to me to rape me again, but because I fought it, and fought it off and away, I proved my point: I was not a victim. I would never be raped again.
That was a good solution then. I do not now think that it was the whole truth, though, if it was the truth at all. Please, read on.
More than ten years later I was making a late-night push on the tail-end of a 12-hour solo drive from Seattle to Salt Lake City when drowsiness insisted I find something other than music to listen to on the radio. At the far end of the AM dial, I found a talk show and tuned in right when a woman caller was describing her own frightening ordeal with a raping spirit. After her, caller after caller recounted their own stories. Incubus. Incubus. Incubus. I was riveted. I was shocked. I was… not crazy.
When you look up “incubus” on Wikipedia, you find pat explanations of the religious, mythological, or scientific variety. It’s an interesting read. But, in my opinion, it is lacking.
You see, in the past year or so, I’ve come to learn about spirit attachments. Not only to learn about them, but to experience them first-hand. First, I will say, in dealing with them personally. Then, in accepting my role as one who releases them, who, with the help of their spirit guides and escort spirits of light, sends them home, back to the spirit realm. I do this weekly. People now seek me out to free them of spirits whom they sense, see, feel. I’ve written about some of these cases on this blog.
Through my releasement work, I’ve met several women who, like me, have encountered malevolent sexually assaulting male spirits. Sometimes these spirits are passersby — perhaps accurately identified as “attachments,” though not the kind that sticks around for long. Consider my first meeting with one, for example. Most often, in my experience, they latch on and stay, making life very scary for the women they’ve been attracted to.
Here is one story.
Last week, a woman came to me this week after a sleepless night in which she had felt a male spirit press down upon her, paralyzing her. She knew that he was trying to rape her. The spirit was oppressive and projected an image in her mind of a powerful lion, with large, devouring teeth. This is not the first time the woman has been visited by an incubus, nor the first time that I have helped her with one. She remembered what I had told her before. She thought of me. She wanted to call me, but could not move her arms, so she focused on me in her mind. (Interestingly, I woke at that time, feeling like something was wrong. I got up and stayed awake for several hours while this was happening to her.) She remembered how I speak calmly to the spirits I work with, so she did the same. She said to the spirit: “I know who you are. I know what you are trying to do. But I believe that you are lost. If you leave me alone now, I’ll help you get home tomorrow. I know someone that can help you.” She kept repeating this to the spirit. She also remembered my teaching her how to put a protective bubble of light and love around herself. She had not been doing that regularly, but envisioned that bubble during the attack. The attacker let up, and she could relax. She didn’t sleep the rest of the night, on guard against the spirit. First thing in the morning she texted me.
“Please help me. Get him off of me!”
Through self-hypnosis and connection with my higher self, I learned that I could not free her of this spirit remotely. I could, though, connect with him and speak to him. I surrounded myself with Source light, just as much as protection as impression fortifier, and linked to this spirit. I introduced myself as a friend of the woman and told him that I was there to help him get home. I promised him that I would help him that evening when the woman was scheduled to come to my office, and then asked if, in return for her and my help, he would push himself into the farthest reaches of her aura, keeping himself away from her as much as possible. He agreed.
That evening, when the woman came to me, she was exhausted and anxious. As she lay on my therapy table, I conducted a body scan and found that she had four spirit attachments, including Mr. Incubus. Two could be released first and easily, the last could not be released until the incubus had gone. It was somehow attached to the incubus, or there because it was attracted to him.
I telepathically spoke to the incubus. “It’s time for you to go home now.”
Me: “Ah, you feel like you need to say something to this woman before you go?”
Me, to higher self: “Is it in this woman’s highest good to hear this message from spirit?”
Higher self: “No.”
Me to spirit: “Your own freedom is waiting for you in the spirit realm. Love is waiting. Healing is waiting. Will you go without speaking to her?”
I called in the spirit guide of this spirit and asked it to please bring with it escort spirits that were beloved to the spirit, someone he would recognize and feel for. The spirit guide came. I asked it to please take over, to speak to spirit, to invite the special escorts to speak to it too. Instantly, I sensed a shift in the room. I felt joy. I felt love. I felt the spirit let go a little, overwhelmed by the presence of the souls that he loved. I asked if the escort spirits might give him a gift of light and love to help him understand what is waiting for him. They did. Again, I felt release.
I asked again if spirit was ready to go, this time without speaking to the woman.
“Yes. I’m ready. I do not need to speak to her. I do not want to harm her.”
I then asked the escort spirits to wrap the spirit in light and gently escort him home. They did.
I witnessed the woman’s body visibly relax. She sighed. I then quickly released the final spirit, who was ready to leave now that incubus had gone. The woman was clear.
Spirit attachments come to us, often attracted to strong emotions. The hooks for this woman were, and have been in the past “sex” and “sadness.” We will work together through regression therapy to explore these, to heal any unhealed wounds that seem to send out beacons to lost spirits looking for shelter.
It’s important to note that spirits can also be attracted to behaviors. Addictive tendencies do not always dissipate in souls that do not move on to the spirit realm after physical death. So, for example, a spirit that had last experienced life as an alcoholic might find shelter in an alcoholic. Same for a smoker or drug addict. Same for a gambler. Same, also for a sex addict, or someone that had chosen to exert power or influence over others through sex.
I’m not saying that every incubus is the lost soul of a former human sex addict. I do believe, though, that some are. Others, I also know from experience, are dark entities not of human origin (interdimensional attachments), that reveal their power in many scary ways, including spiritual rape. The fact is, though, all can be released. Some are just easier to release than others.
There are many messages here.
- If you have experienced something like this, you are not alone and you are not crazy. Please find solace in this.
- There is help. I can help you, as can many other people who practice spirit releasement. I don’t have a directory of people who do this, but if you look, I have to trust that you will find.
- Take care of yourself. Once you do release the spirit, it is important to explore what it is in you that attracted it to you. Heal the unhealed. Regression therapy is an effective way to do this.
- Take care of yourself even more. I mentioned above the woman recalled my teaching her to protect herself with a bubble of light. It is a good daily practice to envision a lovely bubble of love and light around you. Describe this bubble as “a permeable membrane of love and light.” Then, in your own words set the boundary. For example: Love and light may enter. My own love and light may pass through. Darkness and heaviness must stay out. My own darkness and heaviness may leave. Energies that are not my own are not welcome to enter or attach. It takes not even a minute, and it works. If you do this with conviction, spirits may not attach to you.
No matter what, know for a fact that you do have the power within you to overcome this.